The Devouring Mother.

When all we want is to be heard and seen.

My daughter is staying over at her Fathers, for the first time ever.

I have taken myself down the coast, to the first place that I ever lived in Victoria, close to Inverloch.

I just needed to leave.

I was going stir crazy, sitting in the melting pot and cauldron of my own wounding.

It is a Cancer Full Moon today.

Cancer is the Archetypal Mother.

I always have really pivotal shifts in my life on Cancer Full Moons - I track them in my chart since I conceived my daughter on the Full Moon in Cancer on December 30th, 2020.

In my Astrology chart, Jupiter is in Cancer, sitting right next to my Chiron placement.

Jupiter rules our Dharma. Our greatest expansion. Our capacity for abundance of the heart.

Chiron is the wounded healer. The Sacred Thorn. The thing that is here to carve pain into our hearts in order to support us to give back in the world, to remedy that pain in others.

Motherhood has been exactly this, for me.

My greatest pain point, my deepest measure of expansion.

Equal parts, both.

These placements sit in my 11th house which rules community, which has been the most triggering conversation for me, since I left the first big community I was involved in, when I was 25.

Motherhood has been a journey of rewilding and reclaiming my soul - I have had to CONTINUALLY choose myself over and over again, where I have not been supported.

I have had to fight to get my needs met, over and over again.

And I have also had to really LOOK at where this wound has come from - where in my life, has this wound of lack of support come from? Why has this wound chosen me? And what is it asking of me?

As I return to the medicine that always guides me home, today, through long walks and swims in the cold ocean, I ask myself these questions.

And I can also feel that I am preparing myself to birth my biggest and most important body of work yet - it all landed and trickled into my body this morning after 2 days of what has been the darkest descent into the dark night of the soul, in years.

I can’t want to share it with you soon.

For now, if you are a paid subscriber of mine, feel free to share your Chiron placement in our paid chat support thread - I will share with you what your sacred wound and gift is and how you can really live your medicine in the world.

Sigourney X